I was seriously torn about what to post today.
Yesterday, I posted about blogging off-topic, and I feel a bit of an urge to post off-topic today. I could write about protagonists, prologues, photography. . . but I want to post about panic.
I suffer from panic disorder. Basically, this means that I periodically cede control of my brain to an alien being who is terrified of everything and thinks I'm just about to die.
I pride myself on the fact most people don't notice the difference :p
Thankfully, I no longer get panic attacks very often and they are far less extreme than they were. However, I have a few things I'd like to say about panic, in case any fellow sufferers are reading:
1. Tons of people get them. If you do too, you're not alone.
2. What panic can do to your body is unbelievable. I've had or heard of everything from heart palpitations to dizzy spells to breathlessness to headaches to numbness and tingling sensations all over. None of these are dangerous if they only occur when you're panicking.
3. There is a book I found great called 'When Panic Attacks' by Dr Aine Tubridy. She has a few suggestions for getting better which involve chakras and meditation and other things that sounded like hard work to me, so I didn't actually try any of the things she suggested. But just reading a medical doctor's perspective on what happens before, during and after was very helpful.
I debated making this post, because this *isn't* a personal blog and I don't usually share any details about life events. But panic is terrifying (the clue is in the name) so I think it's helpful for sufferers to be open about what happens, for the sake of other sufferers.
So if you're reading this, and you have suffered from panic, have some resources: Dr. Tubridy's book and a support site. You're not alone and you can get better.
Tomorrow I promise to be cheerful and upbeat - and to talk about writing and . . . oh, feck, tomorrow's letter is Q. Guess we'll have to take what we can get. . . :)